Minna-san, konban wa. 

I really wanted to write to you earlier, my dear readers. However, I either hadn't got the time for it, wasn't in the mood for it or simply forgot it. And when I wanted to post an entry on monday, our internet stopped working. Nice, huh?

Since my last post, nothing really changed. I went to Düsseldorf with my most precious Adrian and decided to participate a trip to London this year. I still don't know of it was the right decision, but I would've have a bad feeling if I had said no to such an opportunity, especially because my mum really tries to let me be able to go there. 

I somehow am strange at school at the moment. Sometimes I'm getting good marks, the other day they tell me I've got to work harder. Ah, I'm getting tired of it.

Speaking of being tired, I today was again nearly falling asleep in school. I recently have this problem more often, and now I'm somehow trembling and tired and blaah... I dunno. 

Ah! My dear friend Sai (who I saw today with her boyfriend Mike near Sai's flat ;3) wrote me such a cute entry QwQ I still don't know how to answer to that, but I'll write her something surely o3o <3

Yes... I'm too tired now, so I hope to write you later.

P.S.: Wrote this yesterday, but it somehow didn't post it. So here's my second try. 

Minna-san, konban wa.

*bows down deeply* Welcome to my new dear garden, which fell into ruins a while ago and had to receive a lot of care to be in a condition good enough to be used again.

Yes, I deleted all of my entries... I felt it was needed. There's a lot of stuff I wish I hadn't written, so here is a new attempt. Some entries were hard to delete, but seeing the result, I don't care that much...
I think my garden of roses needed a restoration. If you change, your flowers change too, and I needed a calm time, so the flowers withered. But now, they bloom in a fragile beauty again, weak, but coloured in crimson passion. Passion to live, and quite live anew.

So enough of this, more of what I've been doing in the past time.

As you maybe can recall, I wrote about finding a special someone in last year's autumn. I still spend most of my time with him, and even if a lot of things are hard at the moment, we still are bound together as much as ever. I got to know his family, which is in quite a small war now, and I'm happy with being here.
School on the other hand is being a bitch at the moment, and I only understand half of the things I'm being told at school.
My health still hasn't been better; I got to know a new physician who's swearing by homoeopathy. Had to tell him half of my life, for three little pills, and of late I just feel terribly tired. I can't even walk normal distances anymore without feeling completely exhausted, and I don't have much of the feeling it'll better soon. I don't know what's wrong. It's this dizzyness and everything, and it's hard to do all the things I'm supposed to do with feeling that way.
In other news, my bunny died last saturday. I don't think I'm gonna be able to bear this pain that soon, we now don't have any pets and I'm just sad each time I come home and he's not hopping around in his cage. He's been my little furry friend for about 7 years (he then was 5 years old, maybe a bit older), and now he's simply gone... well, he was very old and had a very hard time, so it maybe was the best time for him to go.

Oh well... I wanted my first new entry to be a happy one, but I yet am not in the mood. But see it like this: Bad start, but evolving to be a bunch of the best memories one could have.

Thank you for your attention. *gives scones to you*

-Shiori-